The Character I Created Is Obsessed With Me

61 – A Momentary Rest (4)

At least I wanted to be honest with the goddess.

I just wanted to see the ending of the game.

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However, after being disappointed with the poor ending, I lost interest and gave up.

From my point of view, I simply quit the game.

However, from their point of view, it was no different from being abandoned.

I also felt unfair.

Who would have predicted that quitting the game would come back like this?

But that is only my position.

Due to my neglect, the goddess and Erina fell into a deep sense of loss.

Eventually, Erina went mad and her world was destroyed by her.

I told you honestly from the beginning. This world is simply a game.

The reason I lost interest in the world was simply that I was tired of the game.

The goddess was shocked and didn’t say anything.

Who can calmly accept the fact that their existence is only part of the game?

“After killing the demon king, I lost interest. To be honest, there is no other reason.”

That’s something I didn’t want to say.

I felt guilty, but it was already too late to pick it up.

Although I felt sorry for him, I didn’t want to lie to the goddess.

It was right to tell the truth even now.

“I’m sorry.”

“…No. Please don’t say that.”

Even if she resents me or gets angry with me, she will accept it.

However, she accepted the truth surprisingly calmly.

And she blamed herself.

“It’s all my fault.”

“What…?”

“You turned your eyes away from this world because I was lacking.”

I definitely expected the goddess to be disappointed and rebuked me.

However, there was a completely different reaction.

It was my fault for abandoning this world at will.

But the goddess was looking for trouble for herself.

I didn’t understand at all, so I asked again.

“Aren’t you resentful of me?”

“Yes…?”

Rather, the goddess looked surprised as if my words were strange.

In a situation where the words were out of sync, the goddess hurriedly continued.

“It was a bit of a shock. But I can’t blame you for that.”

“Why…?”

“It’s all my fault. It’s all about dragging you into this world and using the system on your own.”

Her words turned her hair white for a moment. It was nonsense.

The person who brought me into this world was Erina.

The goddess just couldn’t overcome the threats and just followed them.

But the goddess still couldn’t lift her head.

She began to confess like a sinner confessing her sins.

“I accepted the offer to kidnap you into this world.”

“That’s Erina’s blackmail…”

“Of course there are reasons for that. But I know all too well.”

“…”

“I missed you too. I wanted to see your face at least once.”

Although, the goddess accepted Erina’s proposal semi-forcibly.

But if it hadn’t been for Erina’s threats.

If Erina had approached her because she wanted to collude with her goddess.

She wondered if the goddess rejected her offer.

“That’s why when I first met you, I was prepared to die when I saw you getting angry at me.”

“That’s…”

“But you understood my situation. And you trusted me more than Erina.”

“…”

“To blame you. I don’t deserve it.”

As I listened to the goddess’ words, I felt like I was gradually sinking into a pit.

After all, it means that she too was plagued with guilt towards me.

“You did nothing wrong.”

Even if you regret it, what would change?

Above all, the prerequisites were wrong.

The goddess said that I am the master of this world.

But I was wrong. I’m just an ordinary person who played the game.

“I have no power. I can’t use the system.”

“But that doesn’t change the fact that you are the master of this world.”

No matter how much we talked, the words didn’t mesh.

A deeply ingrained way of thinking did not change easily.

“How can I, who have no power, be the master of the world?”

“No, because this world exists for you.”

There was no end to the round and round conversation.

At some point, we lost each other’s words.

I don’t know what’s wrong or where to start.

We couldn’t understand each other and only felt sorry for each other.

“Sorry… “

The goddess felt guilty for bringing me into this world by force.

I could understand how confused she was.

But her way of thinking was completely incomprehensible.

“After all, we are meaningless without you. The same goes for me and Erina.”

“Not really. Even without me… “

“The world has no meaning without you.”

The goddess spoke again in a hoarse voice.

This world is mine. It is a world prepared only for me.

It was a completely unacceptable statement to me.

In the end, the conversation just spins in place. And there was no more time left.

Little by little, my vision began to blur. The time to part has come today.

Recognizing that time had run out, the goddess hurriedly opened her mouth.

“I have one last question…!”

I listened to the goddess in my blurry vision.

After hesitating for a while, I heard her voice.

“After becoming stronger than Erina, what do you plan to do with her…?”

“…”

The goddess’ question pierced the core.

Actually, I also thought about it several times.

If you kill the demon king, save the goddess, and tell Erina the truth.

How should I treat her?

Despite the goddess’ desire for an answer, her gaze was gradually drifting away.

“I’m sorry. I’m not sure.”

Even though I said it myself, I felt pathetic.

She ended up giving her indecisive answers that couldn’t convince her.

I couldn’t see it properly, but the face of the goddess didn’t look very bright.

In the end, she closed her eyes without any other excuse.

***

“…I knew it would be like this.”

When I opened my eyelids, two familiar faces came into my eyes.

As expected, Erina and Kayla were on top of her body.

Carefully, she unwrapped her arms around her waist. She lifted herself up from the pressure.

Not one person, but two people climbed on top of the body, so the weight was different.

Even though Erina is her habit, she did not think that she would change like this until Kayla.

Thanks to that, the three-person room’s bed was meaningless.

It was a spacious room that I paid a lot of money for, but the other two beds seemed to have no use.

She tried to get herself up, but she gave up.

If I move, both of them will wake up.

I didn’t want to disturb my sleep in the middle of the night.

I also wanted to rest quietly. I didn’t want to fight with the two of them from dawn.

Above all, I am exhausted enough now.

Even if I slept, my fatigue did not go away, and my stress only increased.

Wouldn’t it be possible to find a clue if we meet and discuss with the goddess?

Contrary to expectations, only questions increased.

‘System corruption. Expedition request and Celica. Subjugation of the demon king. Goddess rescue. Erina’s treatment.’

It is not easy at all.

And there was no one who could help.

More than all my karma. These are problems that I have to solve alone.

I let out a sigh to clear my mind.

There was white gray hair in front of my eyes.

Erina, who was deeply asleep under the blanket, looked at peace in the world.

“Erina.”

I called her name in a small voice.

I was breathing quietly in my sleep.

Her chest moved with the beat of her heart.

A thin breath could be heard between the small lips.

A month has passed since I was with Erina.

She has never been away from her.

Even so, she was still unfamiliar.

It was hard to believe that he destroyed the world and that he was deceiving me.

But there was clear evidence.

There were also witnesses and testimonies. I had no choice but to believe.

“What are you…”

Why did he lie?

Why am I wary of becoming stronger?

What will you do with me if you subdue the demon lord?

For what purpose do you keep me by your side? No, is it dependent on me?

And how long are you going to lie?

There were so many things I wanted to say.

But I haven’t heard an answer yet.

I didn’t know how I would react if Erina’s lies were exposed.

Without her power, it would be impossible for her to subdue the demon lord.

She had to keep her by her side now.

‘You really like me… ?’

He craved affection from me and clung to me without even trying.

I was wary of my becoming stronger and pushed my other teammates away.

In the end, he even committed murder.

Do you really love me? Are all the actions right for me?

‘Or do you really think of me as a scarecrow…?’

Of course, I had no intention of just watching.

Being dragged around by the character I created for the rest of my life. It’s funny.

‘…Let’s sleep. Let’s think about it after sleeping.’

I still have a lot of work to do tomorrow. I had to make up for sleep even now.

I laid down on a soft mat.

I closed my eyes, enduring the pressure felt on my body.

At least for now, I wanted to fall asleep without thinking.

However, sleepiness still did not come.