The Character I Created Is Obsessed With Me

60 – A Momentary Rest (3)

[Hello. Good morning.]

[Lady Erina! You came today too!]

[Today, I came to pray to the Goddess. Worship time has not passed yet, right?]

[Yes. There is still a lot of time left. Come in. The weather is chilly.]

[I see. Sister Celica, be careful not to catch a cold.]

[Erina-sama is really kind. She will bless even the Goddess.]

[This level is nothing compared to her Goddess grace.]

[The goddess always watches over devout believers. The same goes for Erina-sama.]

[Still, it’s not enough compared to Celica-sama. We should imitate Sister.]

[Religion has no size or weight. It’s up to her own mindset. Keep her always in her heart.]

[Then let’s go inside. Shouldn’t the nun also prepare for her worship?]

[Ah, yes. Please wait a little bit in the worship room. I’ll be back soon!]

***

Erina and Celica.

I remembered a conversation between the two of them not long after they met.

Just imagining it is a friendly memory.

Among the numerous episodes, this is one of the most heartwarming scenes.

‘Although I won’t be able to see you again.’

Erina has lost her pure heart.

Even if she met Celica, she probably wouldn’t approach her as warmly as before.

“If she’s Celica, she remembers me too. She was a kid who followed me especially.”

Serica has been her nun since she was a child and she grew up in a monastery.

Among her numerous priests, she was unusually fond of her goddess.

Even when people in the world doubted or cursed her goddess, she smiled and carried through her beliefs.

Unfortunately, the person Celica admires so much is in a mess.

“It’s more than just following. If you say it, I’d believe that the sun would rise in the west.”

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Celica was exceptionally strong among healers.

According to the setting, her devotion to her goddess was proportional to her miraculous powers.

Maybe it’s the result of reflecting the settings.

‘If you think about it, Celica is amazing too.’

Under no circumstances did Celica ever abandon her faith in her goddess.

It was the same even in the situation right before her death in her bad ending.

Even in difficult situations, even in days of hardship and adversity, she always smiled brightly and cheered me up.

She

She was a fellow who had no reason not to be taken.

“Her journey will be easier if she is with her.”

“Yes. I don’t know about anyone else, but I have to bring Celica.”

Above all, the healer was considered the most important role in the party.

Recovery can also be done with potions.

But when she plays the game a little, she quickly realizes that it is a complacency.

She couldn’t afford to drink a potion leisurely in a situation where the enemies were endlessly swarming.

However, the story is different if she is accompanied by a healer.

As long as you protect the healer, you can play virtually invincible.

There is a downside of being forced to play passively, but that was tolerable.

“The next destination will be Helen Village.”

“It’s time for the expedition request to come out soon. Before then, we should prepare well.”

I have already told Erina and Kayla about the next expedition.

They said money was their goal, but in fact, they had a separate, most important goal.

Money was important to her, of course, but Celica was a colleague who should never be missed.

“Still, it will be easier than the last expedition.”

Helen Village was not as cold and barren as Nostel Snow Mountain.

Rather, it is a bustling town that is embarrassing to compare it with Norton Town.

The difficulty of the expedition request was not high either.

If everything goes as planned, the request will go smoothly.

However, it has never worked out as expected.

Unexpected crises always came and I was in trouble.

“I’d love to help, but I can’t think of a way…”

“Don’t worry. Instead, worry about yourself.”

“It’s okay. As long as you’re all right, I don’t care.”

If I were put in this situation, how long could I last?

My mind must have collapsed at least dozens of times.

Nevertheless, the goddess smiled brightly in front of me.

Even with the slightest hope, the country was relying on its existence.

About the plan, it was decided in general.

Now, all that remains is to resolve the question.

So many questions arose during her time with Erina.

“I have a question for you.”

The system that supports this world, and the goddess that protects the system.

What would happen if the goddess died?

At my words, the goddess’ face darkened.

I know it’s a painful question, but I definitely wanted to hear the answer.

“I was born to protect the system.”

“And you have the power to control the system, right?”

“Yes. If…if I were killed by Erina, the power to control her systems would also be taken from her.”

Just as I killed the snow woman and absorbed her power, so did the power of the system.

If Erina killed the goddess, the world would be in her hands.

I’m sure Erina wouldn’t be unaware of that fact.

“However, tampering with the system is impossible. Even if Erina takes away my power, I won’t be able to force a turn or manipulate the world at will.”

It meant that knowing whether or not you had abilities and how to use them were two different things.

For example, the goddess knew how to connect this world with the original world by conveying my voice to Erina.

That’s why I was able to summon myself to this world.

Similarly, the goddess was able to send me back to my original world.

But if the goddess died, she couldn’t return to the original world even if the system was intact.

“Damn it…”

I had planned to save the goddess anyway, but the situation was troublesome.

And the question still lingered.

“Why is Erina trying to kill the demon lord with me?”

“…”

“Even so, I am wary of becoming stronger. What the hell does this mean?”

Apparently, Erina suggested that we join a party and defeat the demon lord.

But I was wary of growing and becoming stronger.

Unlike Kayla, I wasn’t happy when I defeated Snow Woman.

I was just in a hurry to hide my embarrassment.

This is obviously a contradiction in behavior. That’s why it’s the least understood.

‘There must be a purpose.’

The goddess thought hard and spat out a word.

“Scarecrow.”

“Huh?”

“I thought the purpose was to make you a scarecrow.”

When you think about it, it was so strange.

If the purpose was to kill the demon king, there was no reason to stop me from becoming stronger.

Still, she didn’t want me to get out of her grasp.

As the goddess said, if the purpose was to make me a puppet, then everything went well.

“Erina said she would make you a hero.”

“…”

“But a façade of honor would mean nothing. I don’t even know if Erina wants that.”

A chill went down her spine at the thought that perhaps the feelings Erina had were not simple affection.

It was a very plausible reasoning.

Finally, there was something I didn’t understand the most.

“Why am I letting you live?”

“…Are there any reasons why you shouldn’t kill me?”

This was the only question that didn’t have a definitive answer.

Even if we put our heads together, we couldn’t come up with a clear answer.

I expected that if I consulted with the goddess, I might get a clue to her, but I felt that it was more twisted.

Still, one clear goal has not changed.

“Still, the purpose has become clear. I must become stronger than Erina.”

“Yes. Also, it would be better to meet Celica and her last ally as soon as possible.”

As the number of comrades around her increased, Erina’s actions became more restricted.

When Kayla came into the party, she even sighed and blocked her.

How will Erina react if Celica joins the party?

Probably won’t stay still.

Erina already knew about Celica.

If she goes on an expedition to Helen Village, she will know my intentions at once.

But I couldn’t back down either. Celica was a colleague who must be brought.

“Maybe the conflict will deepen.”

“Don’t be afraid. You’ll have to pretend someday.”

I had to stop Erina. To do that, she had to become stronger than she was.

But right now, I didn’t have the strength to stop Erina.

I don’t know what would have happened to her if she hadn’t had affection for me.

“Recently, Erina has been clinging to me a lot.”

Erina’s affection grew stronger day by day.

I could still vividly see him fighting with Kayla and sobbing and telling me he loved me.

Since then, Erina has been quite obsessed with me.

Even now, while she is probably asleep, Erina is still in my arms.

“You. No way…”

“Huh?”

“Are you thinking about Erina…?”

For an instant, her expression collapsed, and her face was filled with despair.

The two eyes that were staring blankly at me were out of focus.

The goddess was misunderstanding. She quickly shook her head and explained.

“No, absolutely not.”

I still couldn’t believe Erina.

But I couldn’t ignore the kindness she showed me.

Her duplicity and expression of affection towards me.

The gap between the two actions is just confusing.

I wanted to tell the goddess about it.

But once she fell into doubt, she couldn’t hide her insecurities.

He began to persuade me with an urgent tone.

“You shouldn’t trust Erina. You know how dangerous she is…!”

“Yes, I know.”

“Are you obsessed with looks…?”

“No, that’s not the case,”

“Eh, if you want a girl, let me… !”

“Stop it.”

The goddess’ lips stopped at my words.

A moment of awkward silence passed between us.

My dizzy head became more complicated.

Future plans. Erina’s purpose. Cracks in the system.

There were too many things to worry about.

The goddess didn’t know that either. She apologized to me with a sad voice.

“I’m sorry. I said something presumptuous…”

“No.”

It’s not her fault. It was a good enough situation.

The moment I turn my back on her, the only rope given to her is cut.

You will be unable to rely on anyone.

“I know it’s presumptuous, but I want you to hear me…”

With a calmer voice, the goddess continued her story.

“I have made a living managing the system and giving your voice.”

“…”

“Erina isn’t the only person in despair when your voice can’t be heard.”

I just stopped playing games.

However, it came as a big wound and shock to Erina and the goddess.

Who would have known that quitting the game would come back like this.

It was all karma for my actions.

“Even though you didn’t give me orders, I could fathom your will.”

Please make a peaceful world.

The goddess obeyed the order and vowed to live forever.

However, everything was turned into nothing by Erina.

Becoming a hero, she led the world to destruction.

That wasn’t enough, she dragged her own master into this world.

“But Erina betrayed your expectations. Such an ungrateful human does not deserve to be by your side!”

Everything the goddess said is true. Except for one fact.

“I never wished for peace in the world.”

“Yes…?”

“I just wanted to see the ending of this world.”